Chapter 20

Faisal's point of view

I was right. I never got over her. I never forgot her smile, it was beautiful. She was beautiful when she was 13. When she was just a kid. Ajal keif l7een ? When shes 16 ? I wanted to see her, i wanted to see that familiar face. I might be back home in riyadh, but it wont feel like home until i see her. Until i see her eyes. Whenever i looked into them when we were kids i got lost in them. Maybe if i look into them now, i'll remember all the times we had together. We were just a bunch of kids bs i really did love her , and i still do. But she can't know, not yet.

My phone interrupted my thoughts

Hala: "I miss youu </3"

Me: "I miss you more"

Hala: "R u back??"

I opened the chat but didnt answer, did she want me to be back ?"

Hala:

PING!!!

PING!!!

PING!!!

PING!!!

PING!!!

Me: "Bsmllaah ! Eee rj3t!"

Hala: "WALLA!:O:D"

Hala: "7amdella 3ala salamtk oo salamt ahlk ! Kefhm inshalla kwayseen?"

Me: "Eee 7amdella tmam, enti kefk oo kef el waled ?"

Hala: "7amdella bs ma a'6n ydri ennkm rj3to ! Akeed bynb96!"

Me: "Ahh ee lssa ma glna le a7ad enna raja3na"

Hala: "I feel special ;;)"

Hala: "Mta rj3to ?"

Me: "You are ! Gabl 3 ayam"

Hala: "Ahh 7lo nawarat!"

Me: "Bwjoodk!"

Hala: "6yb lazm 2book ykallm baba 3shan nshoof b3'6 !"

Me: "Inshalla :*"

Hala's point of view *2 weeks later*

What do i weaaar ?!

I was standing in front of my closet and i keep thinking i have nothing to wear for tonight.

Faisal and his family jayeen lyoom 3ndna.

And as i was struggling with my dresses, skirts, and tops our maid Joy came in holding the house phone

Joy: "Someone want talk to you"

Me: "Who is it ?"

Joy: "Abdlmajid he say he have to talk with you"

Oh no im trying so hard to forget him i just dont wanna talk about him. 

I need to forget him.

Me: "Tell him i dont want to talk"

Joy *speaking to the phone*: "Hala in the batroom now" and she winked at me 

I gave her a thumbs up.

Joy *whispering to me*: "he say he wait!!"

My godd

Me: "Give me thank you joy"

She nodded and left

Me: "Alo."

Majeed: "Hala a5eeran lazm akallmk."

Me: "Mmm"

Majeed: "walla asef e4a za3altk lamma kallamtk ma knt ag9d walla sorry bs please fahimini wsh elli 9ar ! E4a 3la elli gtltlk ya a5er mrra walla i understand e4a za3alti bs 9ara7a elli benna akthr mn enna y5rb 3la shy zy k4a!"

Me: "Majeed ma abik tloom nafsk, its not you its me, ana mani jahza"

Majeed: "6yb njhz sawa Hala please ! Ana ajahzk please Hala i need you in my life and i love you!!!"

Im not gonna cry im not gonna cry im not gonna cry im not gonna cry

Me: "Majeed i cant"

Majeed: "Please 7abibti walla el esboo3en elli fato kano a93ab esboo3en b 7ayati ! a93ab mn esboo3en niha2i thaleth thanawi"

Is he seriously trying to joke right now ?

I sighed.

Majeed: "Hala moo lazm nkoon m3 b3'6 bs aham shy enni akallmk ! aham shy enni a3rf enni law a7tajk agdr akallmk please !"

Me: "Majeed i love you i do .."

Majeed: "I love you more!"

Me: "Let me continue." * i liked this feeling of being in control* "I love you but i cant, i cant talk to you in any way , its not fair. for me or for you, its not fair for you to wait for me, because i dont know when im gonna be ready, it might be after a month or after a year or when im done with college, but i cant string you along all this time. And i dont want to feel like im under pressure by talking to you. I want you to forget me Majeed, just forget me, i might be something special in your eyes, bs fi ktheer banat zyyi, oo a7la mnni, oo a7sn mnni. I'm sorry from all my heart. I'll .. i'll never forget.. you.." *by now i've probably cried a river, and my voice was shakier than ever* "because.. you made me happy, u made me ... sm-mile" there was so much i wanted to say but i couldnt "Bye majeed"

And i hung up, that was that. 

I wiped my tears and put on some make up. I looked at the mess of clothes on my bed and gave out a loud sigh.

I decided to go with a long skirt and a nice top.

The bell rang.

I put on my flats and ran down.

A5er mrra shft Faisal oo 3elta mn 3 sneen, oo a5er mrra mama kant m3ana.

I missed them all.

Baba fata7lhm el bab oo shfta.

Shft Faisal.

My stomach was doing this weird thing, i guess this what you call butterflies ?

Oh god he's so good looking. Look at his hair, oh my god and that smile of his, not to forget...

Oh my god what was i thinking i shook the ideas out of my head and went up to them.

His dad, 3ammi Fahad, his mom, 5alti 7e9a, and him.

I gave him a really big smile and shook his hand.

Our eyes were locked on each other for a few seconds but i looked away the minute i noticed.

They say that eyes never change, and that was true, because when i looked at his eyes, it was like looking at the 8 year old Faisal who was building lego houses with me.

" Life is like a book with many chapters we call seasons. Some chapters tell the story of love, drama, comedy, mystery, loss, adversity, growth, disappointment, triumph, etc. 
Some chapters are dull and ordinary, others intense and exciting. The key to enduring, persevering and being hopeful is to never stop on a difficult page, to never quit on a book or a chapter that seems too long. Some chapters may be sweet but too short. Your words, thoughts, actions, non-action and choices are the pens that write the pages in your book. 
Have the courage and faith to keep turning the pages believing better chapters lie ahead. God is the author and finisher of your life. Trust. Listen. Believe. Grow in God's word. Activate your gifts and talents. Be creative. Be kind. Be patient. Be faithful. Be grateful. Be fruitful."
-Diamond Taylor

@WriterS3oodiya

Chapter 19

Majeed: "Ee kallamta .."

Me: "Ee oo esh gaaal ??

Majeed: "Ma gal shy"

Me: "Keif y3nyy ??"

Majeed: "Kallmta gltlla 'Nayef fi shy t3rfa ?' oo galli 'laa ma a3rf shy, bs fi shy tbi tgoola ?'"

Me: "Ee bs Majeed ymkn ma ybi ygollk enna ydri, ymkn ydri oo ga3d y5a6e6 enna ysawi shy ! Majeed you cant trust Nayef ! Y3ny you never know .."

Majeed interrupted: "3eedi a5er shy glti."

Me: "Esh glt ?"

Majeed: "I cant trust Nayef ?"

Me: "Y3ny mdree bs maybe.."

Majeed interrupted me again: "Hala tra e7na mb zaykm e4a shfta m3 25ti az3al oo ma akallma oo ahaddeda oo mdree esh !! Nayef 9deegi mn yoom e7na 9'3ar oo im not gonna stop trusting him 3shank ya Hala."

I was shocked. 

Did he really just say that ?

I hung up on him and i could feel a tear prickling down my cheek.

He called again bs ma raddet.

'E7na mb zayykm' ... 'Im not gonna stop trusting him 3shank ya Hala'

I remember what he said lamma gltla enna kant tshoof a5ooy;

'Wsh t7s 4eeeeee :s'

What was that ? i ignored all his calls and i even deleted him from bbm

Ok maybe that was too much but i didnt want him sending me messages i dont wanna know what he has to tell me.

Everything was getting complicated, the letter i found b drja, his cold answers, and now this ! 

Im just over all the drama ! 

Nazalt 3nd baba.

Me: "Ahleein baba"

Baba: "Ahlan 7beebti"

I felt my throat tightening and i was trying so hard to keep the tears from falling.

But its my dad akeed 7as enna fi shy

Baba: "Halool wsh fiik ??"

Me: "Wla.. wla shy baba" My voice was cracking

He hugged me and the tears came rushing down.

Me: "Baba ma knt adri enna bkoon el wa'63 k4a mani jahza baba ana lssa bl madrasa lssa 9'3eeeraaaaaa"

I complained for hours for my dad and he kept saying 3adi 7abeebti

Baba: "7beebti e4a ma tbi ngdr nwagf kl shy tra 3adi walla"

I looked up at him with my teary eyes and nodded.

It was over. Everything between me and Majeed was over.

And i wanted it to be over. Not because i dont love him, because i do i really do. But because im not ready.

Sometimes you get so many good chances in life, but you have to turn them down, maybe cause youre not ready, or you just dont have a good feeling about it. Whatever the reason is, i just learned not to dwell over it.  I know i know "carpe diem" "seize the moment" and everything. But sometimes you cant just jump to every chance you get, if youre not ready for it, dont do it. Just hope that one day youll get a better one.

I needed to get some things straight. Starting with Nora. So i called her.

Nora: "Alo."

Me: "Nora can we talk ?

Nora: "Talk."

Me: "La mn jd y3ny agdr ashoofk oo ntkallam mn jd ?"

Nora: "Leh?"

Me: "3shan we were best friends Nora."

Nora: "6yb wein tbi ?"

Me: "Tgdri tji beti ?"

30 minutes later she arrived.

It was the most awkward moment in my life, i didnt know whether i should hug or shake her hand or do anything.

So i just said ahla w sahla and we went up to my room

Nora: "3an esh knti tbi titkallami?"

Me: "Nora esma3i tra what you did wasnt a really nice thing"

Nora: "Ee adri and i apologized mlion mrra bs enti mb ra'6ya tsm3i"

Me: "Nora im sorry bs 76i nfsk mkani shwy !"

Nora: "6yb 7a6et"

Me: "Nora esma3i bs i was thinking enna mn jd we were close and we did so much for each other ! And i dont want a guy to ruin our friendship, even if that guy is my brother"

Nora hugged me and i hugged her back

Nora: "Walla i missed you so much and im so so sorry 3la kl elli saweta and im sorry enni i tried blackmailing you 3la 56btk..."

I looked away when she said that

Nora: "Wsh fiik ?"

Me: "Wla shy bs mani m56ooba"

Nora: "Keif y3ny manti m56ooba !! moo sm3t mn .."

I suddenly looked at her with serious eyes.

Me: "mn meeeen ?!"

Nora: "Mn 3anoud."

WHAAAAAAAAAATTT ?!?!?!

I got up and i started feeling sick

Is there no one i can trust anymore ?!

First Nora, then Majeed (ok i trusted him but still he hurt me), and now 3ANOUD ?!

Nora: "Sorry walla oo tra ma kan ga9dha !"

Me: "Keif b;7ab6 galatlk ?"

Nora: "Kallamt'ha 3shan as2alha 3nnk oo galatli 'she doesnt need you anymore 3ndha 56eebha Majeed'"

Omg i cant help feeling bad for Nayef.

Nora: "Anyway goolili wsh 9ar benk oo ben Majeed ? Sawalk shy ? Bs he seemed so perfect!"

Me: "He was but i just wasnt ready for all this, its too serious im too young."

Me and Nora kept talking for the rest of the night until it was midnight and we remembered that we had school tomorrow and she had to leave.

Me: "A9lan keif ahlk ma sa2alo 3annk ?"

Nora: "Msafreeeeen"

We giggled and hugged each other and she left.

It felt good having her back and i really hope that she does feel bad and wont do it again.

I keep repeating the quote "Fool me once shame on you fool me twice shame on me" in my head and keep hopinh that she wont fool me twice.

I wore my pjs brushed my teeth went to bed and started checking my bb, I noticed i had an invitation from Faisal. I was about to press ignore because i thought he was just a random guy, but i kept feeling that i knw this name.

No. No way it cant be him. After so many years ? No no it isnt.

But what if ? What if it is him ? Maybe he came back ? How did he get my pin ? So many questions were going through my brain. 

Accept or Decline ?

Accept. I mean what could i lose ?

My heart started  pounding when i opened recent updates and found his name.

I opened his profile and checked his dp. There he was. Faisal. My Faisal.

Faisal's family and mine were so close for so many years. And Faisal was like my brother, he was even closer to me than S3ood. Not that me and S3ood are close in any way. We were best friends for so many years. Then on my 13th birthday he told me he loved me, and i told him i loved him too. But we promised each other nothing between us would change, and it didnt we just added some hearts in our convos and when i saw him kan ygool "Esh el 7alawa ha4i" and stuff like that, but he was still the same Faisal i knew, my best friend.But a few weeks later everything went wrong, not between me and him, but between our families. Mama oo baba et6alago oo hma ra7o Jeddah. And i didnt talk to him ever since. But now he added me. 

Does this mean he's back in Riyadh ?

My thoughts were interrupted by a beep, i looked at my phone.

Faisal: "Haloolti<3"

I couldnt help but smile i missed him so damn much.

Me: "Fa9ooli <3"

I'm so sorry for dissapearing. xo

@WriterS3oodiya